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Miseria Cantare (The Beginning)

Love your hate, your faith lost
You are now one of us
Love your hate, your faith lost
You are now one of us

Nothing from nowhere, I'm no one at all
Radiate, recognize one silent call
As we all form one dark flame... Incinerate

Nothing from nowhere, I'm no one at all
Radiate, recognize one silent call
As we all form one dark flame
As we all form one dark flame
As we all...

Love your hate, your faith lost
you are now one of us
Love your hate, your faith lost
you are now one, one of us


The Leaving Song Pt. 2


Don't waste your touch,
You won't feel anything
or were you sent to save me?
I've thought too much,
You won't find anything...
Worthy of redeeming

Yo he estado aqui muchas veces antes y regreso

to... break down,
And cease all feeling
Burn now,
What words are screaming
Reach out,
And you may take my heart away

Imperfect cry,
And scream in ecstasy
so what befalls the flawless?
Look what I've built (Please don't do this),
It shines so beautifully (Why won't you look at me?)
Now watch as it destroys me

Y regreso aqui otra vez y comienzo

to... break down,
And cease all feeling
Burn now,
What words are screaming
Reach out,
and you may take my heart away
(X2)

I left it all behind, and never said goodbye
I left it all behind, and never said goodbye
I left it all behind, and never said goodbye
I left it all to die

I saw its birth,
I watched it grow
I felt it change me
I took the life,
I ate it slow
now it consumes me

I... break down,
And cease all feeling
Burn now,
What once was breathing
Reach out,
And you may take my heart away
(X2)

Heart away


Bleed Black

I am exploring the inside, I find it desolate
I do implore these confines, now, as they
penetrate, "recreate me"
I'm hovering throughout time, I crumble in these days
I crumble, I cannot, I cannot find reflection in these days

(If you listen) Listen, listen
(Listen close) Beat by beat
(You can hear when the heart stops) I saved the
Pieces
(When it broke) and ground them all to dust

I am destroyed by the inside, I disassociate
I hope to destroy the outside, it will alleviate and
Elevate me
like water flowing into lungs, I'm flowing through these days
as morphine tears through deadened veins, I'm numbing in these days
so...

(If you listen) Listen, listen
(Listen close) Beat by beat
(You can hear when the heart stops) I saved the
pieces
(When it broke) And ground them all to dust

I know what died that night, it can never be brought back to life
Once again, I know

I know I died that night and I'll never be brought back to life
Once again, I know

(If you listen) Listen, listen
(Listen close) Beat by beat
(You can hear when the heart stops) I saved the
Pieces
(When it broke) and ground them all to dust
So...

(If you listen) Listen, listen
(Listen close) It dies beat by beat
(You can hear when the heart stops) I saved the
Pieces
(When it broke) and ground them all to dust


Silver and Cold

I... I came here by day, but I left here in darkness
And found you, found you on the way
And now, it is silver and silent, it is silver and cold
You, in somber resplendence, I hold

Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one
Your sins into me
As a rapturous voice escapes,
I will tremble a prayer
and I'll beg for forgiveness
(Your sins into me) your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one

Light, like the flutter of wings, feel you’re hollow
Voice rushing into me
as you're longing to sing
So I... I will paint you in silver, I will wrap you in
cold
I will lift up your voice as I sink

Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one, now
Your sins into me
As a rapturous voice escapes,
I will tremble a prayer
And I'll beg for forgiveness
(Your sins into me) Your sins into me

Cold in life's throws, I'll fall asleep for you
Cold in life's throws, I only ask you
Turn away
Cold in life's throws, I'll fall asleep for you
Cold in life's throws, I only ask you turn
as they seep... into me,
Oh, my beautiful one, now

your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one
your sins into me
as a rapturous voice escapes,
I will tremble a prayer

And I'll beg for forgiveness
(Your sins into me)
Your sins into me... oh

Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one, now
Your sins into me
As a rapturous voice escapes,
I will tremble a prayer
and I'll beg for forgiveness
(Your sins into me) your sins into...
(Your sins into me) Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one


Dancing Through Sunday

Will you join me in this dance, this dance of misery
Cradled in imposs... impossibility?
Swooning, I am swept away
Swept off my feet; with step by step by step
we take the lead as drop by drop, we start...
to bleed

(Oh, we dance in misery)
And we dance on, and we dance on
(Oh, we dance in misery)
All lost in the arms of our misery, oh
(Oh, we dance in misery)
And we dance on, and we dance on
Swept off our feet by our misery, we're swept into the shadows

Will you lend yourself to beauty that will horrify?
Let me hide within your black, the still inside
your eyes
Deafened, caught within a cry
So sensual, as step by step by step, I separate
As breath to breath, as I... suffocate

(Oh, we dance in misery)
And we dance on, and we dance on
(Oh, we dance in misery)
All lost in the arms of our misery, oh
(Oh, we dance in misery)
And we dance on, and we dance on
Swept off our feet by our misery, we're swept into the shadows

So who will follow? Who is the lead?
I know I'll leave a stain, because I bleed
As we dance, we all dance
We all... have no chance in this horrid romance

(Oh, we dance in misery)
And we dance on, and we dance on
(Oh, we dance in misery)
All lost in the arms of our misery, oh
(Oh, we dance in misery)
And we dance on, and we dance on
Swept off our feet by our misery, we're swept into the shadows
Swept off our feet by our misery, we're swept into the shadows


Girl's Not Grey

I'll lay me down tonight
Much further down
Swim in the calm tonight
This art does drown

(What follows) me as the whitest lace of light
(Will swallow whole) just begs to be imbrued?
(What follows) has lead me to this place
where I belong, with all erased
What follows

All insects sing tonight
The coldest sound
I'd send God's grace tonight
Could it be found?

(What follows) me as the whitest lace of light
(Will swallow whole) just begs to be imbrued?
(What follows) has lead me to this place
where I belong, with all erased

I'll lay me down tonight
Much further down
Watch stars go out tonight
On sinking ground

I'll lay me down, I'll lay me down

(What follows) me as the whitest lace of light
(Will swallow whole) just begs to be imbrued?
(What follows) has lead me to this place
where I belong, with all erased
what follow

What follows will swallow whole
what follows will swallow whole



Death of Seasons

Of late, it's harder just to go
Outside
to leave this deadspace
With hatred, so alive
Writhing with sickness, thrown into banality, I decay
Killed by the weakness, but forced to return, turn it off

I watch the stars as they fall from the sky
I held a fallen star and it wept for
Me, dying
I feel the fallen stars encircle
Me now, as they cry

Out there so quickly grows malignant tribes
Posthuman extinction excels
unrecognized
Feeling surrounded, so bored
With mortality, I decay
All of this hatred is fucking real, turn it on... yeah

I watch the stars as they fall from the sky
I held a fallen star and it wept for
me, dying
I feel the fallen stars encircle
Me now, as they cry

it won't be all right despite
what they say
Just watch the stars tonight as they,
As they disappear, disintegrate
and I disintegrate 'cause this hate is fucking
Real
and I hope to shade the world as
Stars go out and I disintegrate

It won't be all right
Despite what they say
Just look to the sky
as stars go out.


The Great Disappointment

I can remember a place I used to go
Chrysanthemums of white, they seemed so beautiful
I can remember, I searched for the amaranth
I'd shut my eyes... to see

Oh, how I smiled then, so near the cherished ones
I knew they would appear... saw not a single one
Oh, how I smiled then, waiting so patiently
I'd make a wish... and bleed

While I waited I was wasting away
While I waited I was wasting away

I can remember... dreamt them so vividly
Soft creatures draped in white,
Light kisses gracing me
I can remember when I first realized
Dreams were the only place to
see them

While I waited I was wasting away
While I waited I was wasting away
While I waited I was wasting away
Hope was wasting away
Faith was wasting away
I was wasting away

I never, never wanted this
I always wanted to believe
I never, never wanted this
How could I have become?
I never, never wanted this
But from the start I'd been deceived
I never, never wanted this
How could I have become?

I never, never wanted this
I always wanted to believe
I never, never wanted this
I never, never wanted this
But from the start I'd been deceived
I never, never wanted this

Inside a crumbling effigy
But you promised
So dies all innocence
But you promised
Me

While I waited I was wasting away
While I waited I was wasting away
While I waited I was wasting away
Hope was wasting away
Faith was wasting away
I was wasting away


Paper Airplanes (Makeshift Wings)

Raise high monolithic statues so fragile as
They fall
I am ever enthralled
Gaze, lie and smirk in time,
your arrogance will suit you well
'Til fashion is dispelled

As waves of plastic fame go out of fashion
You're going out, going out forever unknown
These waves of plastic fame go out of fashion
(These waves of plastic fame are drying up and I smile)
You're going out, going out forever unknown
(Because you're dying to become forever unknown, unknown)

From above a rain of ashes descends
Anathema I will remain,
Forever will remain
From below, in my seclusion
Look up to the sky to see paper wings and watch them burn

Without habitation, you'll never find a soul inside
No life, but nothing's died
No lights, but quite the show (Just as long as no one ever knows
All motion is pantomime)

As waves of plastic fame go out of fashion
You're going out, going out forever unknown
These waves of plastic fame go out of fashion
(These waves of plastic fame are drying up and I smile)
You're going out, going out forever unknown
(Because you're dying to become forever unknown, unknown)

From above a rain of ashes descends
Anathema I will remain,
Forever will remain
From below, in my seclusion
Look up to the sky to see paper wings and watch them burn

Dancing in the rain of descending ash
dancing on your grave, I'll see you all
Falling
Dancing in the rain of descending ash
dancing in your dust, I'll see you all
falling
I'd stop it, had you a heart
I'd stop it, had you a heart

From above a rain of ashes descends
Anathema I will remain,
Forever will remain
From below; in my seclusion
Look up to the sky to see paper wings and watch them burn


This Celluloid Dream

Calling tears from deep inside, oh, you're so exquisite
And in the mirror, all midnight eyes
Oh, if I could remain, but it's just a visit
All midnight eyes read "vacancy"
Twisted, twisting

To the lovely dancing lights, I begged,
"May I cut in?"
But they never stopped playing "their song"
Of a joyous song they sing, I've heard
whispers
On a freezing note, I resonate

Just like romantic verses, just like a joyous end
Just like a memory, it twists me
Just like romantic verses, just like a joyous end
Twist... twisting me

You land as lightly as the new
snow, cinematic
Onto the melting boy, and melt away
You light as gently, you're so cinematic
Bathed in your radiance, I melt

In the glitter, in the dark, sunk into velvet
Praying this will never end
In the shadow of a star, in static pallor
I realized I never began

Just like romantic verses, just like a joyous end
Just like a memory, it twists me
Just like romantic verses, just like a joyous end
Twist... twisting me

You land as lightly as the new
snow, cinematic
Onto the melting boy, and melt away
You light as gently, you're so cinematic
Bathed in your radiance, I melt

All the colours upon leaving, all will turn to grey
All the colours upon leaving, all will turn to grey
(All grey) All the colours (All grey) upon
Leaving
(All grey) all will turn to grey
(All grey) all the colours (All grey) upon
Leaving
(All grey) all will turn to grey... grey...

You land as lightly as the new
Snow, cinematic
Onto the melting boy, and melt away
You light as gently, you're so cinematic
Bathed in your radiance

You land as lightly as the new
Snow, cinematic
you land as lightly as the new
Snow, and melt away
you land as lightly as the new
Snow, cinematic
Bathed in your radiance, I melt


Leaving song


walked away,
heard them say,
”poison hearts will never change"
walk away again
turned away in disgrace
felt the chill upon my face
cooling from within

hard to notice
gleaming from the sky
when your staring at the cracks

hard to notice
what is passing by
with eyes low, Oh

You… walked away
heard them say
”poison hearts will never change”
walk away again

all the cracks they lead right to me and
all the cracks will crawl right through me
all the cracks they lead right to me and
all the cracks will crawl right through me
and I fell apart

As I

walked away
heard them say
”poison hearts will never change”
walk away again
turned away in disgrace
felt the chill upon my face
cooling from within

...But Home Is Nowhere.

Twenty-six years and seems like I've just begun
To understand my, my intimate is no one
When the director sold the show, who bought its
last rites?
They cut the cast, the music, and the lights

This is my line, this is eternal
How did I ever end up here?
Discarnate, preternatural
My prayers to disappear
Absent of grace, marked as infernal
Ungranted in dead time left me disowned
To this nature, so unnatural
I remain alone

Twenty-six years end, still speaking in these
Tongues
such revelations while understood by no one
when the new actor stole the show, who questioned his grace?
Please clear the house of ill-aquired taste

this is my line, this is eternal
How did I ever end up here?
Discarnate, preternatural
My prayers to disappear
Absent of grace, marked as infernal
Ungranted in dead time left me disowned
To this nature, so unnatural
I remain alone

Give me something, give me something
Give me something, give me something
Give me something, give me something real

I lay strewn across the floor, can't solve this
puzzle
Everyday another small piece can't be
found
I lay strewn across the floor, pieced up
in sorrow
The pieces are lost, these pieces don't fit
Pieced together incomplete and empty

This is my line, this is eternal
How did I ever end up here?
Discarnate, preternatural
My prayers to disappear
Absent of grace, marked as infernal
Ungranted in dead time left me disowned
To this nature, so unnatural
I remain alone

This is my line, this is eternal
How did I end up here?
Discarnate, preternatural
My prayers to disappear
Absent of grace, marked as infernal
Ungranted in dead time left me disowned
To this nature, so unnatural I remain alone


"Untitled Poem"
We held hands on the last night on earth.
Our mouths filled with dust, we kissed in the fields and under trees,
screaming like dogs, bleeding dark into the leaves.
It was empty on the edge of town but we knew everyone floated
along the bottom of the river.
So we walked through the waste where the road curved into the sea
and the shattered seasons lay,
and the bitter smell of burning was on you like a disease.
In our cancer of passion you said, "Death is a midnight runner."

The sky had come crashing down like the news of an intimate suicide.
We picked up the shards and formed them into shapes
of stars that wore like an antique wedding dress.
The echoes of the past broke the hearts of the unborn
as the ferris wheel silently slowed to a stop.
The few insects skittered away in hopes of a better pastime.
I kissed you at the apex of the maelstrom and asked
if you would accompany me in a quick fall,
but you made me realize that my ticket wasn't good for two.
I rode alone.

You said, "The cinders are falling like snow."
There is poetry in despair, and we sang with unrivaled beauty,
bitter elegies of savagery and eloquence.
Of blue and grey.
Strange, we ran down desperate streets and carved our names in the flesh of the city.
The sun was stagnated somewhere beyond the rim of the horizon
and the darkness is a mystery of curves and lines.
Still, we lay under the emptiness and drifted slowly outward,
and somewhere in the wilderness we found salvation scratched
into the earth like a message.


This Time Imperfect
I cannot leave here, I cannot stay,
Forever haunted, more than afraid.
Asphyxiate on words I would say,
I'm drawn to a blackened sky as I turn blue.

There are no flowers, no not this time,
There'll be no angels gracing the lines,
Just these stark words, I find.
I'd show a smile, but i'm too weak,
I'd share with you could I only speak,
Just how much this, hurts me.

I cannot stay here, I cannot leave,
Just like all I loved, I make believe.
Imagine heart, I disappear, seems,
No one will appear, here and make me real.

There are no flowers, no not this time,
There'll be no angels gracing the lines,
Just these stark words, I find.
I'd show a smile, but i'm too weak,
I'd share with you could I only speak,
Just how much this, hurts me.

I'd tell you how it haunts me,
I'd tell you how it haunts me,
(cuts through my day, and sinks into my dreams.)
I'd tell you how it haunts me,
(cuts through my day, and sinks into my dreams.)
You don't care that it haunts me.

Oh,
There are no flowers, no not this time,
There'll be no angels gracing the lines,
Just these stark words, I find.
I'd show a smile, but i'm too weak,
I'd share with you could I only speak,
Just how much this, hurts me.

Just how much this, hurts me.

Just how much you...




Now The World (Sing The Sorrow Version)

Summer I painted, a scene, that lit the stars for me,
Said, "I can erase it for you dear."
That summer created, those words, that came to life in three,
They were denied by you.
Summer I laid down, below, the glitter adorned night,
And silently sparkled, my own way.
Summer I laid down, by you, and shared my frail light,
You gave the dark to me.

I looked inside,
(I)
To find,
(Wanted)
The one I sent away.
(To insinuate)
I nearly froze, when I stepped inside,
(I)
To find,
(Remain)
The flowers turned to Grey.
(I self mutilate)
I closed my eyes, and kissed them one last time.

Summer a morning, so pale, alone when they found me,
As I remained sleeping, I heard them say,
"This summer created, a boy, of abject misery."
He was designed by you.
(He was designed by you)

I looked inside,
(I)
To find,
(Wanted)
The one I sent away.
(To insinuate)
I nearly froze, when I stepped inside,
(I)
To find,
(Remain)
The flowers turned to Grey.
(And self mutilate)
I closed my eyes, and kissed them..

So like a lost child,
I will hide.
And like lost lie,
I will find.

Find a way to return to the ones who made me,
Cover your eyes and we'll die together.

Will you fly for me,
Will you fly for me,
Or will you cry with me?

Will you fly for me,
Will you fly for me,
Or will you cry with me?

Will you cry for me,
(I've been a lonely one)
Will you fly for me,
(I've had this whole world)
Or will you die with me?
(Drained from me)

Will you cry for me,
(Am I the only one)
Will you fly for me,
(I've had this world)
Or will you die with me?
(Drained from me, drained from me.)

Summer I painted, a scene, that lit the stars for me,
Said, "I can erase it for you dear."



Synesthesia
Heartbreak, incarnate, I'm nothing if not your memories
Heartbreak, please let me be your joy and your pain

Someday, I will be...
I'll be those common words spoken uniquely
Because I may, will forever be floating as you feel.
Where all remaining failed

Please let me haunt as scent on your pillow
Letters of past are tear stained and wrinkled
Please let me haunt as scent on your pillow
Letters of past are tear stained and wrinkled

(Just say...) Say you will for me (for me)
Invite me to your memory
(Just sing...) Sing again for me (for me)
That long forgotten song

Heartbreak, incarnate, I'm nothing if not your memories
Heartbreak, please let me be your joy and your pain

Someday, I will be...
I'll be that waking warmth fro a fading dream
Because I will, I may at best
Float as you feel

Please let me haunt as scent on your pillow
Letters of past look distant and wrinkled
Please let me haunt as scent on your pillow
Letters of past look distant and wrinkled

(Just say...) Say you will for me (for me)
Invite me to your memory
(Just sing...) Sing again for me (for me)
That long forgotten song

Let me be all the words
Let me be all the words
Let me be all the words
Let me be all the words

Let me feel the words echo in comfort
Let me be all the words that you'd unsay
Let me feel the words echo in comfort, comfort, comfort, comfort
Let me be all the words that you'd unsay, unsay, unsay, unsay

Let me be all the words echoing comfort
Let me be all the words that you'd unsay
Let me be all the words echoing comfort, comfort... comfort
Let me be all the words that you'd unsay, unsay, unsay, unsay